Sweat Pants = Privilege

today was the multicultural conference

and today

i found out

sweatpants equals privilege

because if you don't have to care how you look if your probably not employed

and sweatpants in themselves are worn for comfort

and what is comfort? if not a privilege

privilege is an addiction, a habitus passed down through generations 

and it exists in many naturalized forms and easily takes presence without acknowledgment 

sweatpants equal privilege

inbox

its like i wasn't even there, as if i had no part in anything and the blanks were just being filled in by everything he wanted from me.

nothing much but a new year

i think I'm only writing right now because I'm at my parent's house and there isn't anywhere to sleep and this keyboard is different.

this is my first post in a significant amount of time and I'm not sure I've got anything relevant to say. my oldest cat is being particularly noisy. I'm waiting for my phone to buzz (not ring). the only messages I'm getting lately are from ex-lovers and boys who wish they were. oh, and Brian ward, who crushes everyone in a contest of character.

its a new year, new hopes, new dreams. I'm pretty terrified, but I'm happy to have 2008 behind me.

PB&J and spaghetti

are the only things i've had time/energy to forge and consume these days
soooooo much work. gross.
sometimes the idea of controlling time sounds really wonderful
oh if only i had majored in mad science.

I miss this:

blue VS pink

by: JeongMee Yoon

gender roles are creepy

being HIV positive

today I empowered myself by taking charge of my body and getting tested for HIV. go me! there was free testing on campus for students in recognition of World AIDS Day. It was very simple, you swab your own mouth. It takes 20 minutes to get the results and the duration of this is spent reviewing preventive measures, how HIV/AIDS is contracted, and talking about your sex life with the nurse, who was in my case, an old black woman. She was very kind, straight forward and informative. The kicker is that all people who were tested got nail clippers, mouth wash, condoms, a dental dam and an awareness ribbon. Overall a good experience, the real bonus was the NEGATIVE result.
The real message, at least in my opinion, is that we should all be positive about HIV and supportive of those with it. That's real empowerment and that's being POSITIVE.

State of Maryland VS Speeding

My dad is a police lt. and in the event of a speeding ticket, phone home.
The choice made between us was to face the judge and 'fess up for my sins. (I drive waaayyy too fast on back roads to get home, 64 in a 45 too fast. Funny thing was the whole ride there (previous to the ticketing) I knew I was going to get pulled over. I could feel it. It was a premonition I chose to ignore because how could I ever foresee something like that?)
Advice from my dad concerning the trial is scrawled all over the summons:

• plead guilty with an explanation, asking for probation before judgement
• " My dad is a deputy commander in Montgomery County and I'm embarrassed to say..."
• i was careless, not proud, should know better, speeding is dangerous
• ramifications of my actions, the damage speeding costs
• turning point in my life, graduation from college, paying my own insurance
• don't try to "sex up" the judge with the way that i dress
• have confidence, be mature, honest, and speak from the heart

the verdict? NOT GUILTY.
the cop didn't show. bonus, the judge was a woman.

although there was an officer there whose dock was really unscrupulous. all the speeding tickets he gave were for going 67 in a 40. all of them. real strange, don't you think? like he accidentally locked in the speed (which is right next to the trigger on the radar gun)? some unfortunate man with a wife and kid tried to argue this and failed and was ultimately fined $135 (which he had to defer) after much argument over the truth of the cops statement about checking the functionality of equipment. i don't know what area he was running this radar in, but almost everyone on his dock was lower income and all of them had to pay $135...